November 17th, 2005
i'm bipolar II,(also GAD,OCD,ED,social phobia,i used to self-injure and was sexually abused in my childhood)
i'm on valproic acid+antidepressant stimuloton+clonazepam.
any advices/memories/triggers/thoughts on being on one of these meds?
i'm a student at the local university.
Current Mood: accomplished
October 24th, 2005
i suffer from bipolar depression,generalized anxiety disorder,ocd,and i used to SI.before i started Lithium and Seroquel (6 weeks before)i weighed 105.82 lbs and now i weigh 127.87 lbs.any tips/advices on losing weight?i just feel so upset about seeing myself in the mirror..any help will be greatly appreciated!
Current Mood: accomplished
October 6th, 2005
|rachelute||12:06 pm - xposted like crazy in other bipolar communities|
I have a question for you all but first, I'll give you some background about me - I'm bipolar I (i used to post to this community but haven't in a while), and over the last few years, I've been creating mood logs for myself - I've gone through at least 6 or seven different generations of charts, but for the last year or so, I've been using basically the same one, making beneficial changes along the way to make it easier for me to read and use...and I recently produced on in bound form for myself.
About 2 years ago, my therapist suggested to me that I try to produce these for other people to use, and said that she'd be willing to sell them for me to other bipolar patients she had. I've thought about it, but never did it.
Is this something that you think would be beneficial? Do you think I should produce these, and try to market them to people I know or to therapsists? They've really helped me out, and I'd do it for just about whatever my cost is (though I don't know what it would be yet...not much at all, I'd wager - less than $10, definitely.) If someone created a mood-log book and it didn't cost much, is that something you might even consider purchasing? Please take time, if you have it, to let me know what you think!!
Thank you sooo much!
Update: Yes, I know that there are free charts online, and I think they're great, but I always had to change 'em to include things I wanted them to have on them. I think more people (bipolars) should chart because it's so beneficial. I don't care if people buy 'em (it's not like I'm thinking of mass producing them or anything), but to have them available - even if it just raises awareness about the benefits of charting, is what the idea is about. It wasn't my idea to begin with, and I wouldn't charge people a dime if they didn't cost something to make! Jeepers.
--update added because, although most people agree it's a good idea to have them available, I've had a few people upset because I mentioned charging for something that they can get for free online. If I sold them to pdocs or therapists, it'd be their decision to charge or not, anyhow.
The important thing to me is that people know that charting is good. I don't know of any that are bound/bookletted instead of having lots of random papers all over the place (like those you can print off the internet), even if they are in a binder (mine were, and it got annoying even after).
September 6th, 2005
i'm Natalie,22 years old.i suffer from bipolar disorder (manic depression)since i was 13,but it just gets crazier and deeper as time goes by.i also have OCD,GAD and an ED;i also used to self-injure;went through sexual abuse in my childhood.I've been on vivactil,wellbutrin,effexor,signopam,zoloft,rispolept,remeron,clonazepam,seroxat,clonazepam,stimuloton and so on.Hospitalized several times.I guess i will be starting lithium or seroquel this week and i'm terribly worried as i always greatly suffer from the side effects.
i'm a student and the subject i'm studying is Russian (my native)language and literature.
i'm collecting angels and butterflies.
i love music,cinema and theatre,travelling,writing and receiving letters,reading,drawing,being with my friends.
i'd love to find friends to snail mail with,who understand what i'm going through,so that we could support and help each other.Please e-mail me at firstname.lastname@example.org,so that i would give you my address.
Current Mood: nauseated
July 11th, 2005
|daymare47||01:44 am - New member|
Excuse me if this comes out sounding terrible. I've never been good at introductions. My name is Amber. I'm 23, and a stay at home mom from Colorado. I was put on anti-depressants about 5 years ago, and quickly fell in to my first Manic phase. I was finally diagnosed with Bipolar and Borderline Personality Disorders when I ended up in the hospital for extreme suicidal thoughts. I haven't been on meds or in therapy since. It's getting too hard for me to take though, and I'm in the process of starting again.
I worry that I'm looking at the meds as a complete cure all. It feels like there's so much wrong with me, and I need something to fix it. I always say the wrong thing. I can't keep friends to save my life. I'm becoming pretty good at acting. My boyfriend is the only one who truly knows me. Most of the people in my life right now don't know I'm Bipolar. How it's still a secret, I don't know. They probably just think I'm the biggest bitch they've ever met.
I'm sorry if this is too personal. That's a bad habit with me. It's nice to know communities like this exist on livejournal.
Current Mood: nervous
Current Music: In the Waiting Line - Zero 7
June 12th, 2005
|passionateraven||05:04 am - Uncertainty|
I am not sure if I'm Bipolar. I run through the web pages online and I never feel "confirmed" to be Bipolar, though I doubt myself very much. How is it though that I behave or feel "hypomanic" with friends and not with my family. How is it that I just "control" this or change at certain times? I'm 19...and I'm not completely sure whether it's just laziness that's wasting my life or if I really have a "condition." I've been to psychiatrists and psychologists throughout different times in my life and there have been opposing opinion throughout these different times. The last one I went to said I was normal. But am I really? Is this excessive enthusiasm and wish to do it all really normal? Or is it normal to be how everyone is..at a middle level? Or am I just trying to hide myself cuz im super sensitive and dont know how to defend myself or brush things off when criticized, and excusing this as a mental disorder? OR do i just think waaaayy too much, and if so, how do i control it?
Is anyone a God send here that can tell me what it is that is going on with me? lol ugh...
May 24th, 2005
|meldawen||03:33 pm - Intro|
I'm cross-posting this to several BP communities I have just joined. It's from my own journal, and a fair description of what's going on in my head lately.
( Bipolar and other stories )
I've finally realized this (LJ) is as good a place as any to reach out.
Current Mood: down
February 26th, 2005
This...community...seems...DEAD. I keep thinking about how when I put my pills down the sink, I waste my parents' money. But sometimes I feel like letting my mood swings take over.
February 7th, 2005
It's been a while since I updated to you all, so I figured I would.
I saw my homeopath the other day, and all went well. I've realized since starting homeopathic treatment that...
1.) my allergies have even gotten better; I haven't lost my voice once this winter.
2.) my mania is extremely lessened; I haven't been paranoid, hearing voices, wanting to self-injure, or any of that fun stuff.
3.) my depression is a bit less (though it was never too much to begin with most of the time)
4.) I've been able to deal with life all around A LOT better.
I'm a whole lot happier...and without all of the nasty side-effects. We went through a whole huge list of the problems that I had been having when I went in there the first time and how severe some of the symptoms were, and things have gotten SOO much better. I feel wonderful.
Please don't yell at me because homeopathy is working wonders for me like some of you did last time. I'm just here to share like any one of you, and this is supposed to be a place where I can say what I want to say about how I feel and what works for me. This works for me. 3 months, and it's really been working great for me.
*hugs* God bless and prayers to you.
January 31st, 2005
|eternal_secret6||07:56 pm - I feel guilty|
Can't seem to find any cyclothymia communities. Alawys bipolar or depressed ones. Anyway...
Nickanmes (choose one): Roses, Eos, Doll, Psycho, Schizo
Afflictions: Cyclothymia and Schizophrenia, OCD?
Cyclothymia is really close to bipolar disorder, so I'm hoping I'll still be accepted here.